开心与伤心

this year i had a memorable chinese new year even though i m o tired since 年初一 til 年初六 la.actually i m so happy n enjoying at tis cny..

thks to my dear coz werever he go,he still will bring me go oso.n take k me wel wel oso.i like a small baby wen bsd him.even tis mth v hv argue dam many times.but the argue like help us to build up our relation n increase the love between each other.izzit next time v nid more argue ah?hehe…

today my dear company me go to pusing there find my buddy..wow..dam touching la.so so so appreciate it la..but my dear hs lose rm15 la.heart pain.even i m the winner.why i will touching le?cox my dear is bsd me lo.rite?

hope tat  next year cny my dear n me still will gether n loving each other much much…..

2day i feel so down ah.coz vv confusing to my study la.haiz.dunno wanna drop the f9 or not ah?act i quite lazy la,wen i m noe tat my time table vv full.i try best to avoid it n decide to drop paper.act i not scare cant handle it.i m lazy.how come i become like tat ah?m i cant rescue ah?m i really wanna give up my study ah?if i continue like tat i sure cant complete my acca n become an accountant ah…..

huh..i think got many things make us nid 2 change thn  only can fullfil the requirement la.is it the changes are better to me?OR Better to us ah?confusing ah..

i dunno wat event cause me change to sensitive la.i noe wen i m sensitive.he n me oso suffer la.but i like loss control la.jz will scold n moody la.haiz..

is it i too scare will lost him so i owaz think in bad mind le?is it love him until too horrible la.

wat he say oso vv reasonable la.but i dunno wen  i say my feeling wat is he thinking la.haiz..quite hate tis feel la.

recently i think myself hv change a lot  la.i wodering the changes are better to me or not ah?coz it is quite hopeless n dissapointed changes la.i dun wan k anymore la.coz i cant get bac wat i wan n wat i nid…..so i just dun k la..hope tis is better to me n him la…

merry christmas to my dear n all my frenzzzz….

at the christmas eve my dear n me went to sercet recipe use our dinner ah.tat food at there very very delicious ah.but quite expensive la.heart pain la.coz my dear treat me eat aH.vv pain la..after tat v may goin 2 frenz cafe there join his buddy yamcha.finally v went bac at 1am smth la.at tat time v hv court down christmas ah.wow.1st time court down with my dear,meningfull.mucxxx

at the day of christmas v went to penang-auto city-TAO.waiting tis time for very long.finally v starting our sushi buffet at 11.30am n finish it at 3.30pm ah.my dear n me full til cant move n tummy dam big la.but tat food is vv delicious ah.cant tahan oso.jz eat n eat.after finish eat v may starting car goin bac 2 ipoh la.even v din’t went to shopping or wat.but i stil vv enjoy it.coz my dear bsd me.tat feel is vv special to me.appreciate it vv much.

dear,thks for giving me a memorable christmas ah.thks ur present oso.i like it vv much…..

2nite i wrote a post again.act my mood quite nice at 2nite,but at last hv smth spoil it.

now i feel quite hopeless.i dunno izzit sum body is respect me or just take it like vv simply la. how come a person hv a fault but still say i m correct la.

haiz..every thing oso say hv told me before mah,.but y din care abt my feeling before any action leh?must me feel hopeless thn only say soli got use mah?i dun think so la.is too late..

i dunno n\how much i contribute thn only can fullfil his requirement.n i oso dunno how much his contribute thn only can fullfil my requirement la.i admit tat i m the person who very selfish ah.i wont deny ah.but i dunno wen i change it.every things i oso dun wan mind n just take it easy.how comw he still feel tat not enough.’u r too bad’

i dun wan owaz think in negative d,but sumtimes cant control it.i told myself owaz cant think in negative ah.but  wen u get hurt from snth.u will lost control.

haiz..i dun wan every time oso hear soli,y before doin those stupid thing,din consider my feeling le?i hate itt…..

YEAR end la.tis mth is the last month in year of 2008.wow.tis year quite memorable for me la.in tis year i hv complete my cat n starting my acca part2 la.hope at future can bcum a accountant la.hehe..

2day is hock lee n me gether 8 mths la.but v din’t date la.at last nite n 2day v oso din’t meet each other la.coz hock lee nid outstation 2day la.n i cant call him cum 2 find me.it will let my dear more tired la.

actually i dunno mind or not la.coz at the future v still hv a lot of chance cant celebrate our memorable date la.coz my dear will goin 2 kl la.n me will staying at ipoh la.distance increase=argue increase ah?i dunno la.

actually if i mind thn i may indirect give my dear pressure la.i cant ah.i nid bcum a good gf la.but recently i bcum a bad gf la.my emotion,my attitude..really bad la….

actually i hope tat time can pass vv fast la.coz i hope tat can gether long long wif my dear,i dun wan say happy hw many mth 2 my dear oly la.i wan say happy gether 1 years,2 years n many many years la.but got many many thing c cant noe it n expect it,wat v plan n wat v think mayb cant bcum true at future,but i hwill try best 2 maintain n make the plan bcum true la.

2day i hv read a magazine la.the title is “HOW TO CHOOSE UR MR.RIGHT”

got a sub title tat make me vv interested ah.tat is ur bf hv plan future wif u ah?

actually a gal is need the feel tat can make her feel warm n stable la.sometime if bf plan future wif me.i will think izzit his future will including me ah?but still feel vv sweet if can plan the future 2gether ah..

actually sometime i oso will think izzit my bf future will including me or excluding ah?but i think my dear will including me la.even is a small part la.i wan make the part bcum big n wholly la..hehe

dear,happy gether 8 mths o

at 8 dec 2008,i hv finish my exam la.complete 3 papers at tis time exam la.but i think sure got 1 paper will fail la.haiz..mayb i think too negative,but i can feel tat i cant pass it la.

before exam i hv say if i fail at tis time exam,i will stop my study life n start my woking life la.but in fact m i really wan 2 give up my study life.act study life hv brought a lot of fun n happy 2 me,m i really wan give up?

actually i quite enjoy the process of studying la.i feel tat i m the person who is vv like 2 studying la.

hehe…mayb now i nid 2 wait my result come out thn oly decide wat

2day i write smth at here again,tat mean i quite unhappy n moody la.

wow.i m 21 years old la.but how come my parent still treat me like a child leh?they owaz not allow me do tis n tat ah.make me quite angry la.haiz..dunno how 2 say 2 them ah..haizzz

mayb my mood so down ah.make me think s much.think so many sadness events la..hope i can 4get it as fast as possible la.

wow…

confidence is the element which is vv importance between a couple.without it,tat couple cant gether longer,cant gether in a sweet n warm feel.

actually i hope tat my confidence will increase as much as i can,recently wen i doin all events i oso feel tat vv less confidence ah.include my exam n my relation ah.my mind got problem ady la..i must use more time 2 build up my confidence ah.i cant like tat  d ah..

FOO HUI TENG..now is the time 2 change la..plz change it ah..ur brain cant owaz think negative la..muz think in positive la..ok?hehe…sot jo la..

nov la.omg..my exam is cuming la.vv scare..under pressure la.but i still not prepare anything ah,wow..hope god will praying 4 me la.thks a lot ah.

today i was went 2 KL la.cox my dear was fetched me went 2 KL there ah,we went 2 KLIA fetch his sister la.went back from U.K.thks dear can give me a chance compAny dear la.bsd my dear owaz ah.it realy make me so 感动.V like vv close la.hope our relation will maintain it la.

act i hv vv satisfied wat i hv now la.i dun wan anyone destroy it la.hope my request will hear by god ah.n praying for me la…